Family is very important in everyone’s life. I would say family is one of the main factors to build a person. For me, my family influence me a lot, especially my mother. Asian parents usually have expectations for children, and being controlling as well. Although my mother and I get along like friends, she likes to brainwash me sometimes in a gentle and intangible way.

 

This project is about how I articulate my everyday emotions, and thoughts. I wonder how do I become a person like this today. Is not about belonging or identity, is more about what things and people I have encountered in the past. When I was doing this project I was having many negative energies. I was being lost, insecure, and terrified. I wished to make my audience feel my emotions by walking to my installation room. The room is like my internal world. My mother’s pictures repeatedly appear in this work because she takes a great part in my life. I use one big protection and surveillance. The small prints represent the factors that I encountered. The video only has black and white, and noise as visual to create a flashing effect. The video is to lighten up the room, the prints, also indicate those emotions comes and goes frequently but not in order. The noise I insert within the video is to show how I deal with those feelings. Like tuning the radio try to tune to the right channel.print, and loads of small prints on the wall. The big print is about I try to keep distance to everything to make myself look clearer. However, I am still under my mother’s

 

There are a lot of things going on at the same time, which got robots sounds, flashing video, and prints. I try to create an ambience, a feeling. The room was well organised but confusing at the same time. Once the audience spends time in the room, they will get the spinning feeling that’s why I call this project Spin Spun Spinning.